It's Over

 Mum and dad have left for Sa Yi's house while they wait for Lydia's wedding to take place.

It was a challenging 2.5months together, I must admit.

Right now, I am filled with mixed emotions - relief that life can return to normal and I can be a functional person as Stephen can be taken care of my my in laws and that there will be more order to the house since I'll be the only messy person around; but at the same time, I feel lost.. or maybe I feel like I've experienced loss? Suddenly without my parents. 

It's so hard. I care for them yet I can't stand them. I want to be with them, yet can't wait till they leave.

I want to take care of them but they have their own way of life and feel stressed out by me.

It's probably good that we live apart, but I still hope that they'll move to live nearby.

After all, they are my parents. Once they're gone, no one can replace that hole in your heart regardless of the scars and brokenness. 

May God grant us the strength, love and grace needed to make the most of our remaining time left here on Earth.